• 9:17 PM, Wednesday, October 21, 2009
you know.
usually life for me is
everything is a yes WITH A LIMIT though.
ok i dont smoke nor do i drink right.
but i will always and almost never reject friends.
well people say im stupid and i shud rest and everything
like yeah what to do. i care about friends true?
anything to make dem happy and such.
but they told me u have to rest too
u cant be spending everyday of ur life out and go anything go with life.
it will destroy me?
and noww for once im starting to feel the shagged.
i reject some outings. too many in one day.
ignored some.
say i cant.
for the first time i keep saying NO i thought it would be a good change
BUT NO!
it didnt
my life is going to a new LOW DOWN.
idontfeel good.
nor do i feel better nor do i feel well rested.
so y are people keep saying dat i need to say no whereas
when i say no it only do harm.
i dont say yes to ciggs or drinks or drugs.
but i say yes to friends. outing. no sleep. those kinds
but still somehow i feel kinda DOWN
dont ask me y i just dont feel like saying anything
and its been affecting me emotionally physically everything mentally too,
im tired of this.
like seriously.
what am i to do????????
am i being a bad friend then?
what makes a good friend than?
and importantly what makes a TRUE friend.
come on someone. tell me.
im not looking for muchhhh but however its just that.
I KNOW im weak. and ill bet most of my friends know that too.
I DONT ARGUE I DONT RAISE my voice.
still whatever if it isnt my fault or whatsoever im still to blame and i still take it
but then. it hurts more and more everyday.
whatsamantodo?
