• 4:03 AM, Monday, September 29, 2008
Another summer dayHas come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters
that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?
Well I would send them, but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
YES i DO WANT TO GO HOME
• 2:26 AM,
ok i cant sleep
its 230am now
n i cant sleep
goshhh
i got ntg to do
so yeah i guess i will blog
guess my weekend is just SHOPPED =)
SATURDAY
went out wif my sis n kuzzin
bought a pair of hush puppies shoe LOL!
well it was ok i guess nice
BUT seriously i was being a bitch in choosing =p haha
it was quite a rush i guess the shopping.
after bla3 went to uncle`s place n break my fast
the rest is not important i guess
SUNDAY
shopped wif sherhan firdaus n `special appearance` zuhaili LOL!
ok first of all SORRYY ZUUUU FOR not teaching
seriously i didnt mean it =X
ok so i bought a zara long sleeve tshirt
sherhan bought zara jeans n guess shirt
fir bought a shirt from a shop as well
so in de end we our overall spending was a bomb
tanx to sherhan =p
we catch a glimpse of de F1 race at city hall
ohh man de sound was WOW =)
didnt manage to capture ani car on camera
dey were just too fast =X
hahakz
other den dat
i tink deres ntg much to sae
OMG!
i SERIOUSLY CANT SLEEP
i wonder wat i should do now
hmm
MAYBE THERES JUST TOO MUCH STUFF ON MY MIND
i dunt even noe wats bothering me but i knew deres sumting
seriously i dunt feel like RAYA ing dis year
i dunt feel it
its just different
i seriously want my old life back
sec 2 daes sec 1 i guess?
when everiting is fine
the time where my late grandma is still here
during raya she will cook curry for me
ahhh miss those times
i miss the times when my family USED TO RAYA TOGETHER
but it aint happening animore
i miss the time where i will get excited for raya
discuss wif friends on de colour of our raya clothes
those days arent happening for me rite now
time just cant be rewind
but ...
how i wish it could
i want a family that is as 1
a raya where we have our own home
k dis post is like emo
but gosh i really dunnoe wat else to do
raya isnt the same
im missing those time
the daes when late grandma will give me a diff envelope from the rest
aahhhhhhhhhh i MISS HERRRRRR
i miss my family ok!
u noe de time where after prayers for raya n we get changed
ask forgiveness to our parents
well dats not happening
parents separated
no more raya together
its been happening for the past 3 to 4 years
raya ALONE
but as every year pass
it just hurts more n more
wat hurts more is seeing family
wearing similar kurungs n out together
seeing them united
its a feeling of envy
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sumtimes i may not be de perfect son
being ignorant n such
but the truth is
i love my family very much
i miss the times where deres no financial crisis
money is saved easily
allowance is given everiweek
n i wud just save it
only to use when i really need it
for now?
haish
its just not wat it is used to be
i dunt tink im strong enough to cope wif dis stress
i noe my mind is still not at peace since sec 3
but i just cant seem to find ani solution
haish
i tink dats all for now
i noe dat not many or not even one will read dis post
but i guess i just have to let my feelings out
guess wat?
its 230am now
n i cant sleep
goshhh
i got ntg to do
so yeah i guess i will blog
guess my weekend is just SHOPPED =)
SATURDAY
went out wif my sis n kuzzin
bought a pair of hush puppies shoe LOL!
well it was ok i guess nice
BUT seriously i was being a bitch in choosing =p haha
it was quite a rush i guess the shopping.
after bla3 went to uncle`s place n break my fast
the rest is not important i guess
SUNDAY
shopped wif sherhan firdaus n `special appearance` zuhaili LOL!
ok first of all SORRYY ZUUUU FOR not teaching
seriously i didnt mean it =X
ok so i bought a zara long sleeve tshirt
sherhan bought zara jeans n guess shirt
fir bought a shirt from a shop as well
so in de end we our overall spending was a bomb
tanx to sherhan =p
we catch a glimpse of de F1 race at city hall
ohh man de sound was WOW =)
didnt manage to capture ani car on camera
dey were just too fast =X
hahakz
other den dat
i tink deres ntg much to sae
OMG!
i SERIOUSLY CANT SLEEP
i wonder wat i should do now
hmm
MAYBE THERES JUST TOO MUCH STUFF ON MY MIND
i dunt even noe wats bothering me but i knew deres sumting
seriously i dunt feel like RAYA ing dis year
i dunt feel it
its just different
i seriously want my old life back
sec 2 daes sec 1 i guess?
when everiting is fine
the time where my late grandma is still here
during raya she will cook curry for me
ahhh miss those times
i miss the times when my family USED TO RAYA TOGETHER
but it aint happening animore
i miss the time where i will get excited for raya
discuss wif friends on de colour of our raya clothes
those days arent happening for me rite now
time just cant be rewind
but ...
how i wish it could
i want a family that is as 1
a raya where we have our own home
k dis post is like emo
but gosh i really dunnoe wat else to do
raya isnt the same
im missing those time
the daes when late grandma will give me a diff envelope from the rest
aahhhhhhhhhh i MISS HERRRRRR
i miss my family ok!
u noe de time where after prayers for raya n we get changed
ask forgiveness to our parents
well dats not happening
parents separated
no more raya together
its been happening for the past 3 to 4 years
raya ALONE
but as every year pass
it just hurts more n more
wat hurts more is seeing family
wearing similar kurungs n out together
seeing them united
its a feeling of envy
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sumtimes i may not be de perfect son
being ignorant n such
but the truth is
i love my family very much
i miss the times where deres no financial crisis
money is saved easily
allowance is given everiweek
n i wud just save it
only to use when i really need it
for now?
haish
its just not wat it is used to be
i dunt tink im strong enough to cope wif dis stress
i noe my mind is still not at peace since sec 3
but i just cant seem to find ani solution
haish
i tink dats all for now
i noe dat not many or not even one will read dis post
but i guess i just have to let my feelings out
guess wat?
ramadhan`s almost over
n dis would be the 1st year for me to be able to fast 1 mth
IF i were to get the next two days INSYAALAH
but then
i noe i wont get ani blessing
this is because i have not been praying at home
haiz
n u noe dis ramadhan may be bad enough but syawal
which everyone would celebrate their victory after a mth of fasting,
would be quite a disaster
i tink i wud cry for during dis mth of syawal
even if its not shown
de sadness in me is just too great of a burden for me to handle
olevel is not the concern of me not celebrating raya
but haish
i just cant seem to accept the fact this is happening
it may be a test to me from ALLAH
but i tink ive failed
im trying my best
wats the point of smiling n enjoying outside but
u noe dat ur still not cured
22/5/08 makes it harder for me to celebrate raya
de very sec when i knew dat my grandma had left us,
i knew somewhat that raya is not the same
well most of my family members have dreamt bout her
BUT I STILL HAVE NOT
wat cud dis mean?
ahhh
im SORRYYYYYYYYY for the super long post
i noe dat many will be sick n tired of dis post
but once again
dis feeling inside of me nids to get loose
even after this
i dont even feel better
its nearing to 4am n yes i wont be sleeping for today
my eyebags are already dat bad
it looks like its going to get worst.
when oh when will i be able to celebrate raya like last time
even if going raya wif friends
it will be like mani of us going together but only to wat?
3 to 4 houses?
wats the point.
they say raya is when one family goes to another`s house n share jokes
ask for forgiveness , n de food will be special
but wats the point if ur last 3 raya is all alone u just go to TWO houses
looks like dis year is just gonna be one for me?
for those who even care to read this
I THANK YOU
but if u dunt i understand.
• 9:46 PM, Friday, September 26, 2008
well saturday seems so boring
w.o soccer match wif adelphi
IM MISSING FIELD SOCCER GOSH
BUT
other den dat
i dunt have ani boots to play wif. so damn!
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssssssssssssssssss!
i nid a boot n field soccer =DDDD
pls match ASAP pls boot =D
TIEMPO TOUCH
IM CRAVING FOR YOU!
w.o soccer match wif adelphi
IM MISSING FIELD SOCCER GOSH
BUT
other den dat
i dunt have ani boots to play wif. so damn!
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssssssssssssssssss!
i nid a boot n field soccer =DDDD
pls match ASAP pls boot =D
TIEMPO TOUCH
IM CRAVING FOR YOU!
• 12:06 AM, Sunday, September 21, 2008
Yes im finally 17=)
BUT
how weird can number 17 be
20/9/91
16 is where u can go NC16 POOL n so on
18 is where clubbing n LICENSE
=)
BUT 17
its like ntg.
but indeed
im getting older =)
haha
everyone is.
saturday.
went study wif wanjing rachael hockhao
wif our personal tutor mrSEET =)
actually u guys wanted to buy a cake am i rite? nvm its ok
im fasting
TANX ANIWAY =)
hahaha
n after english
MET shilaMASAM =P
haha
so yes accompany her for the art photos here n dere
bla2
haha after much snapping n TINKING =P
went to national library n slack dere
AIR CON!
=)
n yes buka bubble tea fries n lemon tea at ws.
sit down talk2 again
n went our seperate ways
after eating at home
met sherhan
accompany him to buy the SHOE for work =P
goodluck eh kerje
ANYWAYS i would like to TANX EVERYONE
for the wishes
all of those FULL HEARTED WISHES TANKEW
n de promises of belated bdae TANX YOU VERY MUCH
i dunt expect aniting seriously .
I LOVE YOU GUYS N GIRLS =)
IZZAT SHERHAN HANIFA LIYANA SHILA RAHMAD WANs ZUHAILI SHAHRUL RIZA WANJING RACHAEL MRSEET RAUDHA SULAIMY IRDAYU CHUN HIAN AZEEMAH AFIQ SUHAILAH EILEEN FIRDAUS , friendster ppl n also FAMILY
TANX FOR ALL THE WISHES =)
BUT
how weird can number 17 be
20/9/91
16 is where u can go NC16 POOL n so on
18 is where clubbing n LICENSE
=)
BUT 17
its like ntg.
but indeed
im getting older =)
haha
everyone is.
saturday.
went study wif wanjing rachael hockhao
wif our personal tutor mrSEET =)
actually u guys wanted to buy a cake am i rite? nvm its ok
im fasting
TANX ANIWAY =)
hahaha
n after english
MET shilaMASAM =P
haha
so yes accompany her for the art photos here n dere
bla2
haha after much snapping n TINKING =P
went to national library n slack dere
AIR CON!
=)
n yes buka bubble tea fries n lemon tea at ws.
sit down talk2 again
n went our seperate ways
after eating at home
met sherhan
accompany him to buy the SHOE for work =P
goodluck eh kerje
ANYWAYS i would like to TANX EVERYONE
for the wishes
all of those FULL HEARTED WISHES TANKEW
n de promises of belated bdae TANX YOU VERY MUCH
i dunt expect aniting seriously .
I LOVE YOU GUYS N GIRLS =)
IZZAT SHERHAN HANIFA LIYANA SHILA RAHMAD WANs ZUHAILI SHAHRUL RIZA WANJING RACHAEL MRSEET RAUDHA SULAIMY IRDAYU CHUN HIAN AZEEMAH AFIQ SUHAILAH EILEEN FIRDAUS , friendster ppl n also FAMILY
TANX FOR ALL THE WISHES =)
• 7:31 PM, Wednesday, September 17, 2008
OUUUUUU
played paintball yesterday
such a random called from faris
but yeah
ENJOYED IT TO THE CORE
1st time playing paintball
today is de last dae of my PRELIM paper WOOOHOOO =)
played paintball yesterday
such a random called from faris
but yeah
ENJOYED IT TO THE CORE
1st time playing paintball
today is de last dae of my PRELIM paper WOOOHOOO =)
• 10:40 AM, Tuesday, September 16, 2008
CAROUSEL =)
delicious =P
FREE!
• 10:57 AM, Sunday, September 14, 2008
mygod
been tired bz lately
n sadly
its not because of prelim =(
going out! alot shits
dis is not an olevel student
haha
thurs play lan after prelim paper
break fast at home
pool wif AMY HAN N RAHMAD
FUN!
FRIDAE was stupid? haha i came at 720
only to noe 1st paper was history
so i went back home to sleep
come for the paper at 10 for chemistry
it was sucky
played soccer in de afternoon
buka at home
YESTERDAY
went queensway
surveyed de price of boot =)
in de end
ME HAN AMY FIS BAM
we all bought sumting from RED CAT
haha
everyone carries a plastic beg =P
went home change n me n amy met fis to break fast
together we ate at FRESH BULGOGGI
hmm
it was kinda of ok
brought our bloated stomach n head to TWINs place
met sherhan dere as well
watch as liverpool win 2-1 against manu
after that went home =)
been tired bz lately
n sadly
its not because of prelim =(
going out! alot shits
dis is not an olevel student
haha
thurs play lan after prelim paper
break fast at home
pool wif AMY HAN N RAHMAD
FUN!
FRIDAE was stupid? haha i came at 720
only to noe 1st paper was history
so i went back home to sleep
come for the paper at 10 for chemistry
it was sucky
played soccer in de afternoon
buka at home
YESTERDAY
went queensway
surveyed de price of boot =)
in de end
ME HAN AMY FIS BAM
we all bought sumting from RED CAT
haha
everyone carries a plastic beg =P
went home change n me n amy met fis to break fast
together we ate at FRESH BULGOGGI
hmm
it was kinda of ok
brought our bloated stomach n head to TWINs place
met sherhan dere as well
watch as liverpool win 2-1 against manu
after that went home =)
• 8:20 PM, Tuesday, September 9, 2008
AMY GOT SHOT OF THE WEEK =P
hahaa
sorry eh amy. =P
tkper u aso dunnoe my blog hahaa
UNIMAGINABLE man dat shot.
wooooooo
hahaa
sorry eh amy. =P
tkper u aso dunnoe my blog hahaa
UNIMAGINABLE man dat shot.
wooooooo
• 3:25 PM,
k yesterday was the start of prelim
n i came unprepared
english was a sucker as usual LOL
thought about studying SS which i was suppose to be studying during olidaes
but i 4got
so reached home.
FALL ASLEEP bummer
n yeah thought wanna study after break of fast?
in de end?
played soccer reach home 1145 pm n slept
hahaha
so today was SS n malay . so it sucks as well
=)
n i came unprepared
english was a sucker as usual LOL
thought about studying SS which i was suppose to be studying during olidaes
but i 4got
so reached home.
FALL ASLEEP bummer
n yeah thought wanna study after break of fast?
in de end?
played soccer reach home 1145 pm n slept
hahaha
so today was SS n malay . so it sucks as well
=)
• 8:50 PM, Monday, September 8, 2008
• 11:51 PM, Friday, September 5, 2008
GUESS ANIQAH TOOK CANDIDs =Ptoday .
tiring.
fun.
FULL.
3 words describe it
tiring is because had a last min plan to play soccer
play wif RAHMAD JASLY NAZEER SHERHAN WAN FIRDAUS n ME =)
well basically we all played slack since everione is fasting
haha
had fun and laughter =)
woohoo
after that
got home.
got changed proceed to SHERHAN`s crib
slack wif RAHMAD n HAN
after everiting is done
me n sherhan go to downtown east while rahmad went home
after much waiting
everyone was present
HAFIS ABDUL SHERHAN ANIQAH SYAZANI ATIKAH SYAZWAN RAZALI SUFRI IBRAHIM n SYAFIQ arrived
had a veryyyyyy long break fast at SAKURA
woohoo
2 n half hours straight of eating =)
MARATHON
jokes were made
n yeah alot of excitement
ahah
after that.
went to pasir ris park n slack
had chats stories joke bla3
around 11++++ reached home
so yesss.
GOOD NITE =)
• 7:30 PM, Thursday, September 4, 2008
hey
BLOGGGGYYYYYYYY =)
YESTERDAY
went out wif amira=)
haha
its been such a long time since saw her =P
btol tk? =P
so yeah
1st time I WAS LATE LIKE SHIAT.
around 20 mins? haha
its SHERHAN`s FAULT =P
haha
so met her at 320
proceed to marina =)
WINDOW SHOP!
decided to watch de movie
4BIA
haha
its been a long time since i watch horror movie
n shiats I WAS SCARED
cant believe it =P
hahakz
IMAN DA TK KUAT uh =P
walkkkkkk towards haji lane
den... when we reach SULTAN`s CAFE...
started pouring
it was raining heavily
broke our FAST
n waited for the rain tooooooo calm down
afterwards.
DECIDED to walk back towards suntec
DID MORE WINDOW SHOP
ouch heart hurts when we saw nice2 clothes
shoes n watsoever
no money sadddd.
hahakz
did camwhoring here n dere LOL
pics will be UPLOADED SOON
as SOON as i get the pics aye?
send her home
n i reached home around 11pm?
LOL!
so i had a great day
TANX TAOOOOOOOOOOOO eh
hahahaa =P
TODAY
amaths?
slack?meet sherhan
play game
LOST
=P
going terawih soon
takecareesss
IN DE END
didnt went to terawih today.=.=
SHERHAN uh nie
PLAY POOOOL
nvm
BEAT HIM 5-2 LOL hahakz =DDDDDDDD
after that chilled. releks n den
proceed back here i am! =)
BLOGGGGYYYYYYYY =)
YESTERDAY
went out wif amira=)
haha
its been such a long time since saw her =P
btol tk? =P
so yeah
1st time I WAS LATE LIKE SHIAT.
around 20 mins? haha
its SHERHAN`s FAULT =P
haha
so met her at 320
proceed to marina =)
WINDOW SHOP!
decided to watch de movie
4BIA
haha
its been a long time since i watch horror movie
n shiats I WAS SCARED
cant believe it =P
hahakz
IMAN DA TK KUAT uh =P
walkkkkkk towards haji lane
den... when we reach SULTAN`s CAFE...
started pouring
it was raining heavily
broke our FAST
n waited for the rain tooooooo calm down
afterwards.
DECIDED to walk back towards suntec
DID MORE WINDOW SHOP
ouch heart hurts when we saw nice2 clothes
shoes n watsoever
no money sadddd.
hahakz
did camwhoring here n dere LOL
pics will be UPLOADED SOON
as SOON as i get the pics aye?
send her home
n i reached home around 11pm?
LOL!
so i had a great day
TANX TAOOOOOOOOOOOO eh
hahahaa =P
TODAY
amaths?
slack?meet sherhan
play game
LOST
=P
going terawih soon
takecareesss
IN DE END
didnt went to terawih today.=.=
SHERHAN uh nie
PLAY POOOOL
nvm
BEAT HIM 5-2 LOL hahakz =DDDDDDDD
after that chilled. releks n den
proceed back here i am! =)
• 5:13 PM, Tuesday, September 2, 2008
ok been bz lately.
saturday:
morning went for adelphi`s match
lost 5-1
omg its been like so long
so the only person who scored for us
is SYAZANI
very disappointing
my TIEMPO TOUCH
is GONE =(
TORNN
damns
need new boots =)
after that
went to sentosa for work.
P/S: RAMADHAN MONTH no SENTOSA PLS
haha
after that rush home for KENDURI
=)
tiring day
SUNDAY:
meet kuzz for my HOODIE uhuh come in a box =)
slack wif him
bla3
wont get into detail
last min decided to overnite at his place
MONDAY:
starting of PUASA=)
work
met sis
home
breakfast
TERAWIH=)
home
sleep
OTP
sleep =)
TUESDAY:
slack at home
later after breakfast
TERAWIH =)
saturday:
morning went for adelphi`s match
lost 5-1
omg its been like so long
so the only person who scored for us
is SYAZANI
very disappointing
my TIEMPO TOUCH
is GONE =(
TORNN
damns
need new boots =)
after that
went to sentosa for work.
P/S: RAMADHAN MONTH no SENTOSA PLS
haha
after that rush home for KENDURI
=)
tiring day
SUNDAY:
meet kuzz for my HOODIE uhuh come in a box =)
slack wif him
bla3
wont get into detail
last min decided to overnite at his place
MONDAY:
starting of PUASA=)
work
met sis
home
breakfast
TERAWIH=)
home
sleep
OTP
sleep =)
TUESDAY:
slack at home
later after breakfast
TERAWIH =)
